Whirlwindbooks: Blog Tour -- Being Sawyer Knight ~V~

As lead singer and guitarist of the internationally renowned Souls of the Knight, Sawyer Knight is living a life most men can only dream of. He’s surrounded by music, fame, wealth, women throwing themselves at his feet. He has everything…

Yet he has nothing. Life as one of the world’s most sought after rock stars is tiring, oppressive and lonely. He spends every day being who the world wants him to be, who his manager tells him to be, who his mother expects him to be… all the while fighting against who he really is. Truth is, he’s used to it. He’s actually gotten pretty good at pretending… at living the lie. Until Jake Reed, his ex-best friend and the only person who’s ever made him ‘feel’, waltzes back into his life as the band’s new head of security. Jake wants Sawyer – always has, always will. Now, he just needs to get Sawyer to admit that he feels the same… “You will be mine, Sawyer Knight. The faster you try to run the quicker you’ll fall to your knees. Then, Sawyer… then you’ll be too weak to resist.”

“Jake Reed, my ex-best friend. A friend I’d shared everything with growing up and a friend I’d pushed away saying I never wanted to see again. Now he was here, right in front of me, dressing impeccably in a sharp black suit with enough buttons undone on his white shirt to show the world he was ripped, and the only thing I could remember about him was the way his lips felt on my mine. I’m *** screwed.”

What happens when your past skeletons make their way to the front of your closet, to where whenever you open the door, every one can get a glimpse of all you are hiding? For Sawyer Knight, life just got way more complicated.

Jake Reed left; left with the promise of never coming back and Sawyer took him at his word. So, that fateful night when they were just teens is not only his last memory of Jake but also the most confusing yet arousing time of his life. Never in a million years did he think his best friend would cross the line the way he did…but with the possibility of never seeing Sawyer again, Jake acted on the one impulse he’s had since they became friends. Too bad instead of a fantasy becoming a reality, he was not only rejected but hurt in more ways than one by the one person he thought would understand…

Now, Jake is back. And he’s exactly what Sawyer needs.

“I’m the best. Sawyer Knight has always deserved the best, and if he won’t let me take care of his heart, I will at least make sure I protect his life.”

Being a rock star has both its advantages and disadvantages. There are plenty of women just waiting for the opportunity to say they slept with someone famous…and what better way for Sawyer to forget that the one person he actually has feelings for than to bury himself in someone else as often as possible. That is until he’s actually face-to-face with both his worst nightmare and biggest fantasy dream come true.

Jake is Sawyer’s new head of security…and personal bodyguard.

*insert wicked laugh here*

How’s that for a little twist of fate? Denial becomes Sawyer’s best defense against a bigger, badder, and hotter Jake Reed. The only problem is, Jake isn’t taking no for an answer this time…he knows Sawyer felt the same things he did all those years ago and fear of the consequences are what kept them apart. No longer do those obstacles stand in the way…if only Sawyer can find a way to see that the one person who has loved him all this time can not only protect his life, but secure his heart as well.

“I do know Sawyer Knight—the real one. I grew up with him, I loved him…I still love him.”

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“Sawyer is hiding himself from the world. He’s hiding from himself. And I’m going to find him.”

Oh, this story…this book has got to be one of the best I’ve ever read. And not just in this genre (which is M/M—another new thing for me) but in any genre. I am so enamored by not just the characters but the love story. The time that passes between Jake & Sawyer but yet the feelings remain…that is true emotion of soul mates. Being Sawyer Knight is a love story that transcends all barriers…Jake and Sawyer turn up the heat factor ten-fold, I am completely in love with their story.

Nicola Haken had me so hot and bothered by these two…I even told her in explicit detail how I felt about what I was reading. (Thank you for the opportunity to BETA for you—truly a gift). This book has me scouring shelves for other M/M romances…I just hope they are all as amazing as this one. I think I’ve been spoiled by not just a fabulous storyline, some seriously hot love scenes (that made me blush like crazy), but the style of Nicola’s writing just pulls me in and I never wanted the story to end.

**5 If I Could Give More, I Would Stars**

“I need to talk to you,” was how I greeted Sawyer when he opened the door to his dressing room. We had an hour to wait before the stylists and makeup artists were available to prepare the guys for the shoot, so they were all chilling back in their respective dressing suites.

“Um,’kay,” he said nervously, backing into the room. I followed him inside and then turned back to the door, locking it behind me. That move caused his Adam’s apple to bulge as he swallowed nervously. “W-what’s up?”

“You looked beautiful on that stage,” I said, advancing towards him. Instinctively he backed away, but I kept moving forward until he was pressed against the wall. “My dick was so hard for you, Sawyer. It’s been hard for you since I got here.”

I flattened my palm against his heaving chest and his own hand quickly reached up to move it away, but instead it lingered, his fingers curling around my own.

“Please, Jake. You’re messing with my head. I can’t take it much longer. You were my best friend and I’ve missed that. Please don’t fuck that up.”

“But I don’t want to be your friend, Sawyer. I want to be your everything.”

“You can’t be serious. You don’t even know me anymore.” His voice was faltering. I was winning.

“I do know you. I know you better than anyone. I know you better than you know yourself. If I didn’t, how would I know that you want me to do this?” I breathed, sliding my hand down his chest until it reached the waistband of his jeans. He swallowed forcefully and then opened his mouth, to protest I assumed, but when my hand dipped inside and took hold of his cock, all that came out was a moan.

The risk I was taking was either going to be a monumental breakthrough, or the biggest mistake of my life.

I'm a writer of New Adult, contemporary and m/m erotic romance. I'm a married mum of four (six if you include the dogs!) from the UK and can usually be found with a Kindle or MacBook in front of my face, or carrying out housewife/mother/all round slave duties. I'm a little bit mental and a whole lot of crazy with bordering on unhealthy addictions to tattoos, Pepsi Max and the CockyBoys! ;-)